Anyone want my Easter gift???

Went in this afternoon for my baseline ultrasound only to hear "take the month off"

Seems I have more than just leftover ham.

A 15cm leftover on my left side. Wonder if that's what's causing the pain in my left hip???
Dr said it happens about 30% of the time.
Figures.

So now we are having a forced month off. To top that off if things don't fall just right we will have to take May off too.  We booked a vacation mid May, knowing that we may have to just take that month off...but by then we might have needed a break.
The good part is I don't have to make the hr trip next month for a baseline, just call on CD1 and they will order more meds for me.

I just feel like I'm in tar...stuck and unable to move forward.

On a side note I had a FANTASTIC Easter.  Ended up hosting a brunch yesterday for 14 people and loved every minuet of it.

Happy Zombie Jesus Day

It's OK I went to Catholic School for 12+ years...I'm going to Hell anyways.
Enjoy your Easter!

all over again

I feel like I'm back at the beginning of the whole TTC shit storm.

Femara round 1 = FAIL (FU-AF)
Femara round 2 starts today...I'm already a zombie.

This year I feel lucky to have great blogs/friends to read and find comfort in. It makes me feel like I'm not so alone.
Still I can't help but feel like I'm starting all over again.

I'm highly stressed this month too, which is a bag full of fun right there.
It's the end of the semester, so I have 3 major projects to do...one of witch I have a partner...a partner who is leaving the state Tuesday and returning Saturday. It's a video project and the only time the videos can be filmed is...you guessed it...next week.  I came up with the topic...it's my camera shooting the whole thing, and while I'm tooting my own horn, I'm going to be the one with the mad editing skills. Looks like I'm flying solo on that one! Woo Freekin Hoo.

And then there is the craft show. I had to sign up...it was FREE. You can't wave anything FREE in front of my face without me giving in...I'm a sucker. I know it.

Let's not even get started on Easter.  AJ's family is way prepared. I was emailed a month in advance about dinner plans and asked to bring something.  His mom's family never changes....it's a holiday, we have dinner at 4:30...be there or be an L7 weenie.
My family???? ya I still have no clue what we are doing.

Can I just skip ahead a month....I'll be in Vegas in a month ( LA too!!!).

An Irish Blessing for you.

May God give you...
For every storm, a rainbow,
For every tear, a smile,
For every care, a promise,
And a blessing in each trial.
For every problem life sends,
A faithful friend to share,
For every sigh, a sweet song,
And an answer for each prayer.

I am what you would call an Irish girl, though I'm not 100% Irish by blood, I am by heart.

I have a million freckles everywhere.

I have a DEEP love of potatoes. 

I may not be a fan of beer, but I won't turn down a Killian's Irish Red...ever.

If I could go anywhere in the world it would be Ireland...and good luck getting me to leave.

 

 I'm stuck in class all night tonight so have a green beer for me.

I would much rather be on this beach, with my camera and a Killian's

and a bowl of potato soup

with my grandpa

while he sings me the old Irish song my great grandma use to sing me.

That would be just about the best day in existence ever.

Sláinte

I love Pie.

To celebrate Pi day my family had a pie party yesterday.

This was just a fraction of the pies...I think we counted around 30 then more people showed up with more pie. It was FABULOUS. 

I made a chocolate turtle pudding pie.

I think I'm going to be full for days, I had waaaay tooo much pie.

But you really have to ask yourself, how much is too much when talking about pie?

The answer is never, never too much pie.

 Favorites of the day were: Ms. Lovit's Minced Meat, apple (can't beat a classic), cherry almond, and my cousin made one up that consisted of pie crust and corn pudding with pistachios crumbled on top...it was to die for.

 no I'm not in this picture, and no I didn't take it.

I may have, however, tried to leave with that little baby you see (top middle of picture, he's in blue stripes), but he's family so I really couldn't have gotten very far.

the diet starts today, wish me luck.

I have to be swimsuit ready by May.

Vegas/California here I come!

Happy Fat Tuesday

I spent 12+ years in Catholic schools (yes I had to wear a uniform...no I will not show you pictures), which means that I (to this day) have no clue what Fat Tuesday is for...
Now tomorrow I'll go and have a cross put on my forehead with ashes from the palms of last years Palm Sunday...but Fat Tuesday? The only thing I know about it is that (it's Tuesday and I'm fat) in New Orleans it's a big deal...and king cake is yummy.
We were just there last Nov. and all I can say is that I will never, never, NEVER visit again and definitely not during Mardi Gras. A regular weekend was bad enough!

Anyways, tomorrow starts Lent. The 40 days until Easter, in which Christians use for fasting and reflection. Also no meat on Fridays, which means bring on the fish! I love fish.

Now I haven't been the best church goer, but I'm still a Christian, so I will be donning the ashes and giving something up (fasting).

As a child we always gave up something like chocolate or soda, and as a child that was hard.
As an adult I want to challenge myself even more, something that in the long run will make me a better person.

I have until tomorrow morning to decide, but I have some ideas.

1. go to the gym 3days a week (there's a free gym at my school)
2. get up everyday at 6am...even on days off.
3. make amends with old friends.
4. STOP PROCRASTINATING! (I'm thinking a daily schedule would help with this!)
5. cut down to only one cup of coffee a day.
6. find a new church.

I think I'm going to do all 6. I know it's a lot, but I'm a big girl, I can do it.


It's a proven fact that you can break any bad habit in 40 days. So why not use lent to give up something that isn't so good for you!

The First List of the New Year

I am a lister, yes that's a real word...well maybe it's not. It's true though, I have a list for everything. Maybe it's because I know I WILL forget if I don't make a list. They are everywhere around our house.
So I figured why not put one on the blog!



Without further a due I give you my list of New Years resolutions.

1. loose at least 30lbs (my ultimate goal is to be back to 130lbs, and that would take dropping 60lbs)
2. Organize the bedrooms. (we have 4!)
3. Eat better. This is a MUST. I eat horridly. (see #1)
4. Get better sleep.
5. Get all A's (again!!)
6. Have more "date" time with the husband.(like a real date, sicko! get your mind out of the gutter! hehe)
7. Read more, learn more.
8. Go to the chiropractor more, once a week is my goal. (I'm hoping this will help with my chronic pain.)
9. Really learn to loom knit. (I know the basics, I would love to know how to cable.)
10. Learn to cook more things (goes well with #3)
11. Start and maintain a workout schedule. (a MUST in achieving #1 and probably #4 and my chronic pain)
12. Find a part time job.
13. Get rid of my acne! PLEASE?!?!?!
14. Take more pictures.
15. Spend more time with friends.
16. Open an Etsy shop! (I'm almost there)
17. Make a little human, live the year! (it's the year of the Rabbit you know, so I figure that means we can make like Rabbits and make babies!)

This list ended being so much longer than I wanted it to be!
I think I'm going to frame it and hang it in my activities room, so I can see it everyday.

Ring it in

Happy New Years Eve!

At midnight tonight I will be sitting in my yoga pants and tank-top (maybe a sweater) on the couch in between my husband and a man who calls himself my gay husband.
Last year I was sitting in Chicago with friends (same husband and gay husband) in a private hotel party in a party dress...where we spent the night making fun and taking pictures of the horridly dressed people.

This year my dinner will hopefully be some soup in a sourdough bread bowl or Chinese. For I am fighting a frighting head cold.
Last year the 6 of us ate steak, gourmet mac and cheese (oh man that was good) and other really goooooood food.

Last year we made resoution lists for others at the table.
This year I will make my own, but it will contain some of the same. I'll share it tomorrow.

sometimes you just want to punch the pregnant chick.

We went to a gathering of friends last night.
The "Merry Christmas form Mom, Dad, Kid and one on the way" Family was there...
We chatted (me, the pregnant chick and another girl friend) and come to find out they got pregnant after only about 3 months.
No big deal, and it didn't bug me until later in the evening.
The pregnant chick and I were talking about things and she said a few times "doesn't it just suck trying to get pregnant?"
OMG REALLY!!!
I wanted to pull put my lovely bitchy self and respond with something like "wait you tried for 3 months...why don't you multiply by 5 and then get back to me"
I wanted to punch her in the face so hard.
I wanted to lock myself in the bathroom and cry for a good long time.

Sometimes I don't think that people realize how hard the holidays are for people who are trying to get pregnant.

A little Christmas Hope

This year I asked for a baby for Christmas, I sure hope I get what I asked for.
The good news is that my temperature has been over 97* for the last two days, so that is a good sign...now let's just hope that it stays there.