Monday, May 16, 2011

A Katy Perry Vacation

I'm off in the morning for a vacation

I'm calling it my Katy Perry vacation....
get it?

I'm super exited, I've never been to Vegas before and our friends are getting married while we are there. We are driving out into the desert and I get to be the photographer!
Then it's a week in LA! I said I don't care what we do while we are there, I'm going to San Diego Zoo...and if I can I want to get up to the sequoia trees too.
I hope my camera will survive the trip.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 10

The blogger was all effed up so 3days didn't post....stupid blogger. So here you go! you get them all at once!

One picture of yourself:

Four books: and since picking just four would leave you with a list of four Harry Potter books, I'm giving you my four favorite series.

Harry Potter:7,6,3,5,1,4 then 2- I know I'm going to be one big mess come July. I'm not ready for it to all be over.

The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones, City of Ash, City or Glass, City of Fallen Angels /Clockwork Angel-Read them...just read them.

Hunger Games, Catching Fire and Mockingjay

Maze Runner, The Scorch Trials and The Death Cure(to be released Oct 2011)

Do you want more???
Ok I give in, here are more I think you should check out.

I Am Number Four-the book is way better than the movie.
Will Grayson, Will Grayson-sweet little gay boy story...I do love my gay boys.
The Forest of Hands and Teeth, The Dead Tossed Waves and The Dark and Hollow Places.
Wake, Fade and Gone

Oldies but goodies:
Catcher in the Rye
The Great Gatsby

You will notice that I did not include Twilight. I have read it (many times) but after reading it I felt i needed more. I heard about the Mortal Instruments series and then moved on to some other fantastic series...looking back I realize that the Twilight series was not well written and I can't believe that I wasted so many re-reads on that series when I could have been using that time on better books. Team book Edward, Team movie Jacob, but most of all I'm team Jackson...I want to kidnap him and lock him in my basement.

Three films:
The Harry Potter Movies-I don't know how they managed to find actors that are so spot on.

Empire Records

Is a TV series and option??? good!
 Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

so those are the three that somehow got lost. Now back to your regularly scheduled bloggings...well maybe when we get back from vacation.

Friday, May 13, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 9

Two songs:
Bring Him Home -I sang it in high school for 3 years, we were awesome. If you youtube it just picture a 6part choir singing it.

 Never Alone by BarlowGirl- sometimes when people ask me about my faith I just point them to this song...I feel they hit the nail on the head.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

should I stay or should I go...

I have been battling with myself the last few days. ok month.
This morning the battle heightened to the stage of making a decision, my temp dropped.( but stayed above my cover-line???)
I need to lose weight, bad. Sometimes I wonder if that is why I haven't gotten pregnant yet.

Should I keep going with the Femara and keep going the way we are now or do we take the summer "off" and I try to knock about 30lbs off and start again in August OR do I stay on Femara and we take it easy with TTC and I still try to lose weight. I've also thought about Weight Watchers, but I'm not sure that I would stick to it...I also don't have the money to do it at the moment.
The second option sounds ideal at the moment since we leave on Tuesday for a 10day vacation to Vegas and LA.
The Femara knocks me down for a week, and I really don't want to be a zombie in Vegas. Then the whole OPK battle and smexing for the next week or so would be so hard to do, we are staying with friends and who wants to really do the no pants dance in another person's bed? not this chick.

Either road we take I still plan on looking into acupuncture. I'm also reading a new book.
Here is it's Amazon page.
I've heard some good things, and glanced through it I plan on making it my entertainment on the planes. I hope it helps. If anyone has read it please let me know what you think.

I just don't know which path would be the best to take. It kills me to think of not trying, but I just can't take the extra 60lbs I have on me. 
Guhhh why does this have to be so hard?!?!?

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 6

Five foods:

Japanese Teppanyaki- I like the chicken, steak and salmon...and sushi!
Italian-pasta is one of my weaknesses
Movie theater popcorn

peas-I don't mind raw ones, but you cook them and I gag.
mushrooms-texture not taist
yellow onions

That I can make perfectly:
Tomato sause
Shepard's pie
Chicken and noodles
Olive Gardens Zuppa Tuscana (I'm not sure that's how you spell it, but it's their spicy sausage potato soup)

BBQ Chicken

Monday, May 9, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 5

six places:
I'm not sure what this entails so I'm giving you a few lists!

Favorite Vacations:
Canada-cruise and family trip (been there twice!)
Grand Cayman-cruise
New York-visiting family
Seattle-one place I would go back to over and over again.

I want to see before I die:

Favorite comfy places:
My grandparents-lazy weekends on the big corner couch with my gram, mom and aunt.
Coffee shops
Book stores-I could just walk around forever and never leave.
A print shop-I love the smell of ink and paper.
Antique stores
In my bed with a place ever!

Where I would move without thinking twice:
New York
Madison, WI (they have my favorite beer, and the place is just plain neat)
San Francisco

I wasn't going to do this...

I was trying to not be the whiny person...
but yesterday was hard.

It was my first mother's day as an infertile. It hurt more than I would have thought it could.
It all started the night before. I was at a bachelorette party, and there was this chick there who was pregnant. She of course didn't go out to the bars with us, but later I found out her story.
She and her husband had problems getting pregnant so they decided to foster home with the hopes of adoption. Their hopes came true and they are now in the process of adopting the little one, but in the process they ended up pregnant. That's not the bad part...
I found out she is upset with being pregnant and doesn't even talk to her belly, they say the pregnancy is going to cost them too much money along with an adoption.
My heart hurt so much for that little baby. How awful is it to not talk to your unborn child...hell sometimes when I'm lonely I talk to my future children.

They yesterday came and I was feeling somewhat ok...until I get a text from a number I don't know wishing me a "Happy Mother's Day!!!"
I wanted to scream and punch and cry, but most of all I wanted it to be true.
I then spent the rest of the day fighting not to cry.

Today I'm 11DPO and I really want to pee on something, but I know I can't handle a -hpt today.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 4

seven wants:

1. To go to Europe, namely Ireland.

2. To work from home.

3. A personal organizer to come take care of my mess of a house....scratch that I just want a new bigger house with my own craft room and reading loft!

4. To live without chronic pain. Arthritis and Fibromyalgia suck.

5. To get rid of my face looks like teenagers.

6. To produce two babies, one of each would be great.

7."I really do want world peace". Couldn't help it. (I hate to admit it but Miss Congeniality wasn't that bad.)

Saturday, May 7, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 3

Eight fears

1. Falling. not heights, falling.

2. Driving in the snow or heavy rain...freaks me out when I can't see the road.

3. The dentist. I don't take to novocaine...I can feel everything.

4. Compliments. Strange, I know, but I get all panicky and uncomfortable whenever anyone gives me praise.

5. That infertility will cause me to be a different person.

6. That AJ will leave me for someone: prettier, skinnier, smarter or fertile.

7. That I will never be a mother.

8. That something I did when I was young and stupid caused me to become infertile.

I think fears 5-8 are common in the infertile/ttc world, but that doesn't make them any less of a fear.

Friday, May 6, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 2

Nine loves:

1. Books, I could easily read all day and do nothing else.

2. Yarn, it's something about making a string transform into something warm and beautiful.

3. My brother, I mentioned this in day 1, but he is my best friend and I hate to say this because it sounds kinda odd...I love him more than anybody in my life. I think it has something to do with the fact that we are 10.5 years apart, it's like I have a 19yr old kid sometimes.

4. Photography, I kinda live with a camera attached to my face. I have one on me at all times.

5. Tea. with milk and 1 lump please.

6. Being a Nanny. It's the best job I've ever had. I love C so much.

7. Disney I really need to explain the awesome that is Disney?!?!

8. Music. Life without music would be a horrible place, if you don't believe me then go for a car ride without any music....

9. Movies. I could live without cable, but never without movies. I love all different kinds.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

10 day you challenge:day 1

I found this and figure it would be fun. It also gives everyone a chance to get to know me.

So here goes
Day one: ten secrets.

1. I want to be a professional photographer, but I would totally settle for working for one as an editor.

2. I use to be a size 4 and I don't really care if I never am again, I just want my tummy to be smaller than my boobs.

3. I'm obsessed with late 90's & early 2000's teen movies...I have a weakness for the likes of Freddie Prince Jr. and Ryan Phillippe.

4. I would wear a tutu all the time if I wouldn't get made fun of.

5. I would have at least 5 more tattoos if AJ didn't have a say.

6. I would also have more colorful hair if AJ didn't have a say, I once had purple hair that smelled like grapes!

7. Not to toot my own horn, but I can sing REALLY well. I never perused it because I have the worst stage fright.

8. I wish I would have kept up with dancing, ballet and contemporary to be specific. 

9. I wish I had a sister, don't get me wrong I love my brother more than anything and he's my best friend, but I wish I had the bond that only sisters can share.

10. I constantly feel stupid and less than I should be.

That last one was a hard one to admit, maybe someday I'll explain...