10 day you challenge:day 6

Five foods:

love:
Japanese Teppanyaki- I like the chicken, steak and salmon...and sushi!
Italian-pasta is one of my weaknesses
Mexican
Chineese
Movie theater popcorn

hate:
peas-I don't mind raw ones, but you cook them and I gag.
mushrooms-texture not taist
celery
yellow onions
coconut

That I can make perfectly:
Tomato sause
Shepard's pie
Chicken and noodles
Olive Gardens Zuppa Tuscana (I'm not sure that's how you spell it, but it's their spicy sausage potato soup)

BBQ Chicken

10 day you challenge:day 5

six places:
I'm not sure what this entails so I'm giving you a few lists!

Favorite Vacations:
Hawaii-honeymoon
Alaska-cruise
Canada-cruise and family trip (been there twice!)
Grand Cayman-cruise
New York-visiting family
Seattle-one place I would go back to over and over again.

I want to see before I die:
Ireland
Greece
London
Antarctica
France
Italy

Favorite comfy places:
My grandparents-lazy weekends on the big corner couch with my gram, mom and aunt.
Coffee shops
Book stores-I could just walk around forever and never leave.
A print shop-I love the smell of ink and paper.
Antique stores
In my bed with a book...best place ever!

Where I would move without thinking twice:
Seattle
Portland
Chicago
New York
Madison, WI (they have my favorite beer, and the place is just plain neat)
San Francisco

I wasn't going to do this...

I was trying to not be the whiny person...
but yesterday was hard.

It was my first mother's day as an infertile. It hurt more than I would have thought it could.
It all started the night before. I was at a bachelorette party, and there was this chick there who was pregnant. She of course didn't go out to the bars with us, but later I found out her story.
She and her husband had problems getting pregnant so they decided to foster home with the hopes of adoption. Their hopes came true and they are now in the process of adopting the little one, but in the process they ended up pregnant. That's not the bad part...
I found out she is upset with being pregnant and doesn't even talk to her belly, they say the pregnancy is going to cost them too much money along with an adoption.
My heart hurt so much for that little baby. How awful is it to not talk to your unborn child...hell sometimes when I'm lonely I talk to my future children.

They yesterday came and I was feeling somewhat ok...until I get a text from a number I don't know wishing me a "Happy Mother's Day!!!"
I wanted to scream and punch and cry, but most of all I wanted it to be true.
I then spent the rest of the day fighting not to cry.

Today I'm 11DPO and I really want to pee on something, but I know I can't handle a -hpt today.

10 day you challenge:day 4

seven wants:

1. To go to Europe, namely Ireland.

2. To work from home.

3. A personal organizer to come take care of my mess of a house....scratch that I just want a new bigger house with my own craft room and reading loft!

4. To live without chronic pain. Arthritis and Fibromyalgia suck.

5. To get rid of my acne...my face looks like teenagers.

6. To produce two babies, one of each would be great.

7."I really do want world peace". Couldn't help it. (I hate to admit it but Miss Congeniality wasn't that bad.)

10 day you challenge:day 3

Eight fears

1. Falling. not heights, falling.

2. Driving in the snow or heavy rain...freaks me out when I can't see the road.

3. The dentist. I don't take to novocaine...I can feel everything.

4. Compliments. Strange, I know, but I get all panicky and uncomfortable whenever anyone gives me praise.

5. That infertility will cause me to be a different person.

6. That AJ will leave me for someone: prettier, skinnier, smarter or fertile.

7. That I will never be a mother.

8. That something I did when I was young and stupid caused me to become infertile.


I think fears 5-8 are common in the infertile/ttc world, but that doesn't make them any less of a fear.

10 day you challenge:day 2

Nine loves:

1. Books, I could easily read all day and do nothing else.

2. Yarn, it's something about making a string transform into something warm and beautiful.

3. My brother, I mentioned this in day 1, but he is my best friend and I hate to say this because it sounds kinda odd...I love him more than anybody in my life. I think it has something to do with the fact that we are 10.5 years apart, it's like I have a 19yr old kid sometimes.

4. Photography, I kinda live with a camera attached to my face. I have one on me at all times.

5. Tea. with milk and 1 lump please.

6. Being a Nanny. It's the best job I've ever had. I love C so much.

7. Disney movies...do I really need to explain the awesome that is Disney?!?!

8. Music. Life without music would be a horrible place, if you don't believe me then go for a car ride without any music....

9. Movies. I could live without cable, but never without movies. I love all different kinds.

10 day you challenge:day 1

I found this and figure it would be fun. It also gives everyone a chance to get to know me.


So here goes
Day one: ten secrets.

1. I want to be a professional photographer, but I would totally settle for working for one as an editor.

2. I use to be a size 4 and I don't really care if I never am again, I just want my tummy to be smaller than my boobs.

3. I'm obsessed with late 90's & early 2000's teen movies...I have a weakness for the likes of Freddie Prince Jr. and Ryan Phillippe.

4. I would wear a tutu all the time if I wouldn't get made fun of.

5. I would have at least 5 more tattoos if AJ didn't have a say.

6. I would also have more colorful hair if AJ didn't have a say, I once had purple hair that smelled like grapes!

7. Not to toot my own horn, but I can sing REALLY well. I never perused it because I have the worst stage fright.

8. I wish I would have kept up with dancing, ballet and contemporary to be specific. 

9. I wish I had a sister, don't get me wrong I love my brother more than anything and he's my best friend, but I wish I had the bond that only sisters can share.

10. I constantly feel stupid and less than I should be.

That last one was a hard one to admit, maybe someday I'll explain...