I reallllllllly want to try it, but when I asked Dr. Girlfriend about it she just laughed.
I'm next to positive that our insurance won't cover it unless she gives us a referral.
bummer
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
National Infertility Awareness week, bust a myth
It's National Infertility Awareness week...but you knew that.
It's my first, well kinda first. It's my first since I've had a blog and since I've been labeled as infertile.
So to kick off the week I'm busting a myth from resolve.org
Myth: A higher-power is telling you that you should not be a parent.
My mom has told me many times that it will happen for us when God wants it to happen.
My grandmother told that in order to get pregnant AJ and I needed to ask for forgiveness for every past partner we have had. (that was one awkward convo let me tell you!)
Now I believe in God, and I don't want this to turn into a religion battle, but that's just Bull!
AJ and I have been together for 7years and married almost 2. I'm pretty sure that if God didn't want us to have kids than he wouldn't have let us stay together for so long...being two people that are basically, for lack of better word, in love with kids.
Case in point, we spent a solid hour playing outside, in the crappy weather, with 3 little ones this afternoon. If I can't find AJ at a family function all I have to do is find the kids and he's there too.
We are financially ready, we are emotionally ready, in fact we are beyond ready.
There is nothing, besides infertility, standing in the way of us having children.
Want something other than my reasoning...
Then I ask you why a higher power will choose to take an unborn child away form anyone?
What kind of higher power would allow junkies to have all the babies while good people are left with years of pain and suffering with out children?
Again I say BULL!
I hate ignorant people!
I have never in my life told anyone that God/higher power is the reason for their suffering.
I would liken it to telling someone dying of cancer that God/higher power just didn't think they should live.
It's wrong.
ok crazy lady rambling over.
go to http://www.resolve.org/infertility101 and bust your own, it's kinda fun to get so pissed off about something!
It's my first, well kinda first. It's my first since I've had a blog and since I've been labeled as infertile.
So to kick off the week I'm busting a myth from resolve.org
Myth: A higher-power is telling you that you should not be a parent.
My mom has told me many times that it will happen for us when God wants it to happen.
My grandmother told that in order to get pregnant AJ and I needed to ask for forgiveness for every past partner we have had. (that was one awkward convo let me tell you!)
Now I believe in God, and I don't want this to turn into a religion battle, but that's just Bull!
AJ and I have been together for 7years and married almost 2. I'm pretty sure that if God didn't want us to have kids than he wouldn't have let us stay together for so long...being two people that are basically, for lack of better word, in love with kids.
Case in point, we spent a solid hour playing outside, in the crappy weather, with 3 little ones this afternoon. If I can't find AJ at a family function all I have to do is find the kids and he's there too.
We are financially ready, we are emotionally ready, in fact we are beyond ready.
There is nothing, besides infertility, standing in the way of us having children.
Want something other than my reasoning...
Then I ask you why a higher power will choose to take an unborn child away form anyone?
What kind of higher power would allow junkies to have all the babies while good people are left with years of pain and suffering with out children?
Again I say BULL!
I hate ignorant people!
I have never in my life told anyone that God/higher power is the reason for their suffering.
I would liken it to telling someone dying of cancer that God/higher power just didn't think they should live.
It's wrong.
ok crazy lady rambling over.
go to http://www.resolve.org/infertility101 and bust your own, it's kinda fun to get so pissed off about something!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Happy Zombie Jesus Day
Enjoy your Easter!
Friday, April 22, 2011
Femara round 2
It's hard to say if round two was better or not.
On one hand I didn't puke my socks up, but I did feel like I could at any moment.
I noticed that I was fighting a stronger emotional battle, and man was it rough waters...I wasn't sure my boat was going to stay afloat. I snapped at so many people. Most of them didn't know what I was going through so it was hard to apologize.
All I can keep thinking is "if this round doesn't work they are going to want to up the dosage"...I don't know if I can handle that, emotionally or physically. I'm so tired.
I also have a heaviness in my chest. I feel like I can't get a good inhale.
For a claustrophobic person...that's not good. I keep fighting off anxiety attacks. All the while trying to seem like I'm not.
All week I keep telling myself that if we don't get pregnant this cycle that it's ok, I'll be able to have fun in Vegas next month, it's what I told myself before we went to New Orleans in November...the sad part was that the whole time I was drinking on Bourbon St all I could think was that I would rather be pregnant...and I'm not really a drinker.
Maybe it's just day 5 of Femara and I'm weepy....
but today was the first time I've wanted to cuss infertility out.
I want to scream and cry and punch.
I need a punching bag, with a duct tape label "infertility"
On one hand I didn't puke my socks up, but I did feel like I could at any moment.
I noticed that I was fighting a stronger emotional battle, and man was it rough waters...I wasn't sure my boat was going to stay afloat. I snapped at so many people. Most of them didn't know what I was going through so it was hard to apologize.
All I can keep thinking is "if this round doesn't work they are going to want to up the dosage"...I don't know if I can handle that, emotionally or physically. I'm so tired.
I also have a heaviness in my chest. I feel like I can't get a good inhale.
For a claustrophobic person...that's not good. I keep fighting off anxiety attacks. All the while trying to seem like I'm not.
All week I keep telling myself that if we don't get pregnant this cycle that it's ok, I'll be able to have fun in Vegas next month, it's what I told myself before we went to New Orleans in November...the sad part was that the whole time I was drinking on Bourbon St all I could think was that I would rather be pregnant...and I'm not really a drinker.
Maybe it's just day 5 of Femara and I'm weepy....
but today was the first time I've wanted to cuss infertility out.
I want to scream and cry and punch.
I need a punching bag, with a duct tape label "infertility"
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Wordless Wednesday: hell on wheels
Tonight I'm going to shoot video and take pictures of the local roller derby girls....
I know I'm totally going to want to join, and that could be bad...really bad.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Mom to the rescue!
I love my mom.
She is coming to my rescue on Friday by boiling all the eggs (for the 2dozen deviled eggs I have to make for AJ's family Easter dinner) and then she's going to come over and spend the afternoon helping me make them and putting things together for the craft show.
Sometimes she drives me coo coo, but then again sometimes she does things that totally redeems her annoying factor.
I'm almost done with the blog/website for the business...when I do I'll link you to it. That way you can see what (besides school) has been keeping me from blogging like I want.
She is coming to my rescue on Friday by boiling all the eggs (for the 2dozen deviled eggs I have to make for AJ's family Easter dinner) and then she's going to come over and spend the afternoon helping me make them and putting things together for the craft show.
Sometimes she drives me coo coo, but then again sometimes she does things that totally redeems her annoying factor.
I'm almost done with the blog/website for the business...when I do I'll link you to it. That way you can see what (besides school) has been keeping me from blogging like I want.
Monday, April 18, 2011
all over again
I feel like I'm back at the beginning of the whole TTC shit storm.
Femara round 1 = FAIL (FU-AF)
Femara round 2 starts today...I'm already a zombie.
This year I feel lucky to have great blogs/friends to read and find comfort in. It makes me feel like I'm not so alone.
Still I can't help but feel like I'm starting all over again.
I'm highly stressed this month too, which is a bag full of fun right there.
It's the end of the semester, so I have 3 major projects to do...one of witch I have a partner...a partner who is leaving the state Tuesday and returning Saturday. It's a video project and the only time the videos can be filmed is...you guessed it...next week. I came up with the topic...it's my camera shooting the whole thing, and while I'm tooting my own horn, I'm going to be the one with the mad editing skills. Looks like I'm flying solo on that one! Woo Freekin Hoo.
And then there is the craft show. I had to sign up...it was FREE. You can't wave anything FREE in front of my face without me giving in...I'm a sucker. I know it.
Let's not even get started on Easter. AJ's family is way prepared. I was emailed a month in advance about dinner plans and asked to bring something. His mom's family never changes....it's a holiday, we have dinner at 4:30...be there or be an L7 weenie.
My family???? ya I still have no clue what we are doing.
Can I just skip ahead a month....I'll be in Vegas in a month ( LA too!!!).
Femara round 1 = FAIL (FU-AF)
Femara round 2 starts today...I'm already a zombie.
This year I feel lucky to have great blogs/friends to read and find comfort in. It makes me feel like I'm not so alone.
Still I can't help but feel like I'm starting all over again.
I'm highly stressed this month too, which is a bag full of fun right there.
It's the end of the semester, so I have 3 major projects to do...one of witch I have a partner...a partner who is leaving the state Tuesday and returning Saturday. It's a video project and the only time the videos can be filmed is...you guessed it...next week. I came up with the topic...it's my camera shooting the whole thing, and while I'm tooting my own horn, I'm going to be the one with the mad editing skills. Looks like I'm flying solo on that one! Woo Freekin Hoo.
And then there is the craft show. I had to sign up...it was FREE. You can't wave anything FREE in front of my face without me giving in...I'm a sucker. I know it.
Let's not even get started on Easter. AJ's family is way prepared. I was emailed a month in advance about dinner plans and asked to bring something. His mom's family never changes....it's a holiday, we have dinner at 4:30...be there or be an L7 weenie.
My family???? ya I still have no clue what we are doing.
Can I just skip ahead a month....I'll be in Vegas in a month ( LA too!!!).
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