Ring it in

Happy New Years Eve!

At midnight tonight I will be sitting in my yoga pants and tank-top (maybe a sweater) on the couch in between my husband and a man who calls himself my gay husband.
Last year I was sitting in Chicago with friends (same husband and gay husband) in a private hotel party in a party dress...where we spent the night making fun and taking pictures of the horridly dressed people.

This year my dinner will hopefully be some soup in a sourdough bread bowl or Chinese. For I am fighting a frighting head cold.
Last year the 6 of us ate steak, gourmet mac and cheese (oh man that was good) and other really goooooood food.

Last year we made resoution lists for others at the table.
This year I will make my own, but it will contain some of the same. I'll share it tomorrow.

Wordless Wednesday: CD1 makes me feel like...

well this sucks

 

Looks like Santa didn't bring us what we asked for after all.

I also woke up with a sore throat.

It's also the birthday of a friend that passed away a little over a year ago.

Long story short TODAY SUCKS!

Looks like we are moving on to a SA...

sometimes you just want to punch the pregnant chick.

We went to a gathering of friends last night.
The "Merry Christmas form Mom, Dad, Kid and one on the way" Family was there...
We chatted (me, the pregnant chick and another girl friend) and come to find out they got pregnant after only about 3 months.
No big deal, and it didn't bug me until later in the evening.
The pregnant chick and I were talking about things and she said a few times "doesn't it just suck trying to get pregnant?"
OMG REALLY!!!
I wanted to pull put my lovely bitchy self and respond with something like "wait you tried for 3 months...why don't you multiply by 5 and then get back to me"
I wanted to punch her in the face so hard.
I wanted to lock myself in the bathroom and cry for a good long time.

Sometimes I don't think that people realize how hard the holidays are for people who are trying to get pregnant.

A little Christmas Hope

This year I asked for a baby for Christmas, I sure hope I get what I asked for.
The good news is that my temperature has been over 97* for the last two days, so that is a good sign...now let's just hope that it stays there.

guh

Just when you think you can be positive...
Friends go and put on facebook a little electronic Christmas card...
Signed "Mom, Dad, Child#1 and one on the way"


Sometimes I hate my life.

just keep swimming

I think I'm ovulating....and when I say think I mean that I got a +opk yesterday and today my ovaries feel like they are trying to claw their way out. 
I slept with an Instead cup filled with what my husband calls "swimmies" shoved up my whooo haaa all night last night. I currently have one there right now.
It's what my husband has nicknamed the "hit um hard" method.
All I can think is "just keep swimming, just keep swimming"

man I love that movie.

up too speed

We have been trying to get pregnant for over a year now.
I quit taking birth control March of 2009, and it took almost a year to get my hormones back in balance. Sometimes I think they still are out of whack. Lord knows my face looks like I'm 14 not 29 most of the time.
We used condoms until we got married in September 2009(gasp! yes we did the no pants dance before we got married...think what you will). We used what I like to call the "pull out and pray" method for about a month until we were sure that I was covered under insurance, then we just went with the "we are not not trying" for about a month. Then I found out about the Basil Body Temping Method. I have been temping since April of 2010 (watching cervical mucus since March 2010).
This lead to the knowledge that "not not trying" was being timed all wrong. I don't know who decided to tell the world that ovulation happens on the 14th day of your cycle...
Anyways...my cycles look like roller-coaster rides, and until last month (November 2010) it seems that I ovulated every month...last month I did and then they took it away.
I have used OPK's since June 2010, with the exception of November 2010.

There now you are up to speed.

the first post

This is an outlet for all that I want to talk about but can't. So who better to talk to then the internet? Who knows maybe I'll find some answers and meet some people.  And maybe just maybe I'll finally get pregnant.