The hair on my chinny chin chin....

Can we talk for a moment about the hairy side effects of IF???
ok good.

So I have always had one or two chin hairs...who doesn't. But you tweeze those bad boys and move on with your day.
Until the infertility treatments start, and you are jammin mass amounts of hormones in your gut and wow low and behold...MORE CHIN HAIR!!! I swear that crap grows feet during the night! I have to tweeze every morning now!
And not just chin hair my friend, you now have a mustache! and maybe your bikini line is now a bit further down your leg...
The other night while siting at dinner (IN PUBLIC) AJ...who sometimes doesn't think before he talks...typical man...points out that my "sideburns" are starting to get a bit out of control.  Thanks for that one babe!
Now I'm not some blond goddess, I have med/dark brown hair...so this annoying side effect is so much more annoying due to the fact that the minuet a hair shows it's self the world can see it! It also doesn't help that I'm a whiter than white Irish girl. Meaning that when I do shave my legs you can still see little black dots where the hair is still under the skin!!!
All this makes me miss my waxing days.  When my arms, legs, armpits and face were smoother than a babies bum. (have you ever had your arms waxed? it's magical!) And to top it all off I own a wax pot...but can't use it. My face is so sensitive that the heat causes massive breakouts. I'm talking those nasty cystic acne buggers that are under your skin. It hurts so bad for weeks...it's not worth it. 

Now that I'm pregnant I have to just deal with it, tweeze and move on.  Can't use bleach and can't wax.  I've seriously considered trying to make my own sugaring solution and trying that...but at the moment I do good to make toast without puking my sock up.

Ok I'm done now
rant over

7 Weeks

Week 7 came in with full force last night.
I was up at 3 to pee
back up at 3:30ish (tmi) because of the acid like diarrhea that was threatening to kill me.
and then back up at 4am to hug the toilet and dry heave until around 5am.

AJ slept through it all...jerk ;)

Anyways, here is the weekly update, next week I plan on adding a photo or two. I think I'm going to try the chalk board with regular cloths and then do one in a black shirt so that we can really see the progression.

How far along? 7 weeks

How big is baby?  A blueberry (how freekin cute is that!)

Total weight gain/loss: probably down, I haven’t been able to eat that much in the past week.

Maternity clothes: Not yet, but I put on a pair of my favorite jeans and they were so snug! I’m blaming bloat, but I’m still getting myself some maternity jeans with Christmas money…those things cost so much I’m gonna get every dollar out of them I can!

Have you started to show yet? Not yet, but I have noticed my lower abdomen is growing a bit more, don’t know if it’s bloat or baby.

Sleep: my back is hurting quite a bit and I have been up a ton to pee.
Best moment this week: Seeing peanut! and how excited everyone in the RE office was. My nurse came running out to hug me and see the sono pics and Dr. H kept saying “that’s not you!” every time the heartbeat came on.

Miss Anything? Coffee…I realllly want a good cup of coffee…and decaf is just not the same.

Movement: Nope, baby is still too small.
Food cravings: apple juice is still a big leader. Mashed potatoes and pork gravy.

Anything making you queasy or sick?  Any reheated meat, Hubs had leftover steak and I about upchucked.

Gender prediction: girl…all we can come up and agree on are girl names…if it’s a boy he will be nameless.
Labor Signs: Nope

Symptoms: Week 7 came in with full force last night! I dry heaved from 4-5am last night!!!

Major purchases this week? Still nothing. But I am going out today to look for something to maybe paint with chalk paint for my bump photos. Don’t know if it counts as major since I’ll probably get it at the thrift store!

Weekly wisdom: even though the fried egg sandwich that your grandma is making you sounds like heaven on a plate, don’t eat it…it will not agree with the baby or the steroid and Metformin you are taking and you will pay later.

Looking forward to:  spending some time alone at home, now that the semester is over I can finally get to cleaning and organizing some things around here! And I don’t want to wait till I’m too big to clean out peanut’s room!

and then there...

was one!

We have one healthy little peanut!
All my worries were for nothing, baby looks "perfect" as Dr. H. put it.
Peanut has a strong and perfect connection to my ute, a strong and healthy sounding heartbeat...that yes, made me cry, and the yolk sack looks nice and round...which again he called perfect.
And best of all???
We got the go ahead to finally "celebrate"...
AJ is beyond excited about that!

Later Alligators, I'm off to shoot and edit (hopefully) the last video of my school life.

Ultrasound Today!

How can someone be so freekin excited and so scared for the same thing?

As an IF-er we are so use to our body failing at what is meant to do, that when it finally does it...you doubt and fear it.

I'm so excited to finally see a baby...or possibly babies...in there, and yet at the same time I'm so scared that the dildo cam will show no heartbeat, or a very week heart beat. That this all will be taken away from me. That I will have failed yet again at the one thing I want to do most.

This is another time that I'm wishing for normalcy...to be a normal girl who worries about normal things and not one who has to deal with all these shots and fears and defeat.

I'll try to post from my iPhone on the way home, if it doesn't work you may not hear from me till later tonight. (thank God today is the last day of the semester...I don't think I can take much more!)

More spotting

So today kinda sucked.
I woke up early because we had plans to finish up our Christmas shopping, and like every morning I headed to the bathroom before I jump in the shower....
Today I had to postpone the shower to call the dr's office due to the bright red on the TP in my hand.
I just sat there for a few...I just looked at it, and my heart sank. I wiped and wiped again and each time there was more red.
I called the office, and at this point I'm almost in tears, my nurse was in with a patient and the front desk gal...who is the bomb dot com...told me she was going to grab her the min she was done to call me back.
I texted my mom...because sometimes the first person you want to hear from is your mom.
I then went down and plopped on the couch, told hubs what what was up and waited for a call back...he proceeded to google and tried to calm my nerves.
It only took my nurse about 10 min to call back.
She seems to think that my suppositories are to blame. She thinks that me cervix just got super annoyed or bumped by a who ha cone and since it's basically just a bunch of capillary endings it decided it has had enough and blood happened.
She told me to drink more fluids and call if it got any worse.

I took my shower, got ready and we went shopping.
We parked as close as we could, got what we needed and went to lunch ( I ate cheesey carbey goodness) and then I headed in for 4+hrs of video editing fun! And oh I'm still not done! Have I ever told you guys how much I HATE editing video? Well I do.

Anyways, the spotting turned brown and has been alternating all afternoon between light and medium brown. I did have one clot, but it was brown and about the size of a marble and I googled some more and found what I already guessed...panic if it's a red one but brown isn't something to fret about so I didn't bother to all the on call nurse...I'll just tell them the down low on Monday.
I think I'll be all worried until Monday, and they moved our appointment too! From 8am to 11...which is no big deal other than the fact that I'm stressed about not getting my video done or having enough time to edit it before I have to hand it in....whatever...I'm just being overly panicky about the stupid video...I'll stop talking about it now.

We did have a nice dinner tonight, it's my momma's birthday so we all (parents, brother, grandparents, hubs and I ) went out for our favorite Chinese dinner. It was yummy. Now I'm vegged on the couch watching Despicable Me.

Still spotting lite brown :( but trying to be optimistic.


(and side note...I'm posting from my iPad! Let's hope this lasts, because not being able to use the iPad to post to blogger sucks!)

stupid iPad, update and 6weeks

I totally posted yesterday from my iPad...because I was crazy busy yesterday and had NO time for myself! Who knows where that post went...

I'm doing great, no spotting, no cramps!
Although I think the morning sickness has kicked in today...woooo buddy!

I fixed myself one of my staple breakfasts this morning and I only made it about 2/3 of the way through it...and I still feel pukey. yippy skippy!
Looks like I'll be drinking peppermint tea for the day.

I have decided to wait until 8 or 10 weeks to start the belly shots, and I'm still trying to think of something creative to do. I'm not a drawer or even that good with my handwriting so the chalk board is out. I think I may go in search of some inspiration...don't worry I'll post them here! and you guys can tell me which ones you like best....help me decide!

Now the weekly survey:

How far along? 6 weeks

How big is baby?  A sweet pea and is about .25 inches and will double in size again next week!

Total weight gain/loss: one whole pound! According to my grandmother’s scale.

Maternity clothes: Not yet

Have you started to show yet? Not yet, but I’m chubby so It may take a while.

Sleep: OK, I have switched to my body pillow instead of a regular pillow for my legs, it seems to help but I’m still getting some bad back pain. I really want a maternity pillow ;)
Best moment this week: I told a co-worker/good friend on Friday, and she was so excited that I would have a baby bump for graduation in May…got me looking forward to that.

Miss Anything? We had friends over for dinner Saturday night and the hubs got some Tequila Rose…man I love that stuff, it’s like grown up strawberry milk. I really wanted a shot of that.

Movement: Nope, baby is still too small.
Food cravings: Root beer and apple juice, sweet potatoes and peanut butter.

Anything making you queasy or sick?  My grandpa heated up some leftover stuffing yesterday, I thought I was going to puke instantly.

Gender prediction: girl
Labor Signs: Nope, but there was a spotting and cramping scare on Tuesday, but all is good now.
Symptoms: So Tired! and a bit foggy brained. Today I’m super nauseated.

Major purchases this week? None so far, but my private baby Pinterest board is quickly filling with things to buy!

Weekly wisdom: If you feel like you need a nap…TAKE ONE! Don’t be a hero and push through, it’ll only be bad later. Just take the nap.

Looking forward to:  seeing our little peanut on Monday!

light spotting *updated

I woke up this morning at 5:30 to pee, and who really turns on the light at that ungodly hour, so I didn't check the tp when I wiped.
I went back to bed and noticed I had cramps, like period cramps...now I've been having the "your ute is growing" cramps, if you can even call them that, for a week or so now but this morning was definite pms like cramps.
Today is my day off so I let myself sleep in and when I got up at 9:30 I was spotting light brown and the cramps were still there.
I got up and let the dog out, called my mom and then called the office.
My nurse was with patients so I got put into her voice mail, and I still haven't heard back from her.

I know spotting is normal, and part of me wants to brush it off on the fact that I have to stick a suppository up my hoo haa every night and that my have annoyed my cervix, but it's hard to ignore the cramps.

I'm 99% positive she will tell me to just take it easy for the next few days, no need to go all the way in when I'll be there first thing Monday morning.
I'll feel so much better Monday morning when I get to see the little peanut...I still only think there is one in there...although I'd be thrilled to find two.

I'm off to lay on the couch and crochet...witch is kinda killing me because I have so much to do around this house!


*just like I expected, the nurse said to take it easy for the next few days, drink more fluids, and call her or the nurse on call if my spotting gets any red tints or my cramps get worse.
The spotting has gone in and out all day, but hasn't gone away and the cramps are steady but haven't gotten and worse.
I hope it's gone by tomorrow, I've GOT to shoot video for my final project and video an interview...I'm seriously contemplating a lower grade and not doing the video...but that's totally not me, so I'll end up doing it anyways!