I think I'm loosing it

Not in the brain category, or even the sanity...
Hope
It's sad I know, but for the life of me I can't care that we are TTC.
I can't explain it the right way, and that I think is what is bugging me the most.
It's not like I want to take a break TTC, and I guess saying that I can't care isn't true either.

It's like I'm numb.
I think that's why I haven't blogged in a while.
I almost don't want to talk about it, temp or even try anymore.
I don't think my heart can go through much more. I would almost rather take a while off, but AJ is so gung ho about all of it that it's so hard to even think about suggesting it to him.

I just don't know where I stand at the moment.